Monday, June 4, 2007

I was feeling better today. I have a feeling that someone is watching me. It was as though God sent an angel to assure me that I am not neglected. I wore my favourite Nike sports suit to service. Once again it didn't pass. I was expecting someone to tell me straight at my face. Low self-esteem. Maybe I really don't have any fashion sense. Today I learn what it means to be 'casual'. It means too simple or plain! I always thought that dressing up means wearing more clothes. Justin asked me to change into a blue t-shirt with nice design on the front, and also lent his silver necklace. I passed! I was dead shocked. A t-shirt and a necklace! That's all? This is one of the many times when I really tried hard to improve myself and then realised I am going in the opposite direction. I need to change my wardrobe again =p. The t-shirt is tight-fit and it starts to draw attention from some people who then commented that I have a good body build. Trust me... I am not a body builder! I used to be a fat pork. Then I burned the fats, leaving the muscles. Sounds too easy right! To think that I was often ridiculed at for being fat. I guess we will never know why God wants us to go through life until we experience it! The t-shirt made me feel a bit naked though. I never stand on stage with only a t-shirt. Not used to it. Idy asked Adam to lend me a black vest. The combination was great. I was feeling confident and good about myself. Most importantly I have done my best on stage and didn't pull my choir friends and church down. I also felt so pampered by my great choir friends who helped my styled my hair. James sprayed colors on my hair and 'baptised' it in gel and wax. Idy ironed my hair and 'baptised' it in moose. Keith and his gang stlyed my hair and 'baptised' in hair spray. Left many finger prints on my hair. If I am murdered today, these people will be the suspects. Cause of death: drowned in gel, wax, moose and hair spray. Lame.