Saturday, June 30, 2007

Die Hard

Watched Die Hard 4.0 with my choir friends. The movie started at 12 30 am leh. I'm really gonna die hard big time. Not enough sleep. After the movie, we planned to go supper. Lost. Walk in and out of carpark. The atmos in the carpark was damn weird. Like Tomb Raider. After a long walk, the ladies found the exit... surprisingly (sexist! =p) Newton Food Centre. Chat till 4 am plus. Got to know Jimmy and Basil. Jimmy is 25 years old too! Excited. I seldom see people of my age nowadays. I want to know what people my age are doing. He works for Spring Singapore. Talked to me about government grants for small start-up businesses. Could be an opportunity for me.

Posted by Benjamin at 1:22 PM

Friday, June 29, 2007

Bao Today

A very cheesy signboard.

Posted by Benjamin at 11:55 PM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

The Soul Is Willing, But The Body Is Weak!

I felt that I almost died today. I was teaching Bernie halfway when I suddenly felt exhausted. A pain in the neck. Dizzy. Nauseous. Headache. I endured until the end of tuition. I drove home immediately. I sms Nat that I would be late before I took a short nap. I was woken up by Nat's call. She told me not to come and rest at home. So nice of her. She got Chemistry examination the next day. I was about to doze off when Emo Ming called. She went on and on about something but I couldn't really listen as I was about to die. Hung up. Slept.

Posted by Benjamin at 1:23 AM

Friday, June 15, 2007

Is This My Limit?

Stress. Tuition from 9 am to 12 pm. Vocal IC practice on Tuesday. Choir practice on Wednesday and Saturday. Choir on Saturday and Sunday. Service on Saturday. Cell group meeting on Sunday. Two business plans to write and two businesses to kickstart. One assignment to complete. Got new business ideas to try out. No time to go work out. No time for friends. No time for family. Belle just ask me whether I want to serve in the Chinese church. Stress.

Posted by Benjamin at 1:34 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

I Am A Choir Vocal IC!

I have heard people said that to me a lot of times. Perhaps too many times. I realise it is more than a comment. It is a reminder. Or more like a warning. It was as though God wants me to get it right into my soul. I can feel adrenaline pumped into my body and my body growing exponentially.God is trying to induce and hasten my growth. My heart feels so painful , yet you can feel the presence of God so tangibly. It is as though God is holding me by the hand and leading me through a roller coaster ride. A dangerous one. It was after Guppy 'misbehaved'. He did what he was not supposed to be doing. I never thought of stopping him and allow him him do wat he wants. He behaved as though it was right for him to do it. Then he sat down. Maybe someone asked him to. Anyone but me. Invincible told me that I should learn to take control during vocal practice because I am a choir vocal IC. I should not let anyone take over my job. Especially when people can't do the job. I am a choir vocal IC.

Posted by Benjamin at 2:24 AM

Overjoyed

I just met Superman to discuss our business plan. He decided to call the company Overjoyed. Typical of him to come up with this name. We also met up with this guy who supplies wood.

Posted by Benjamin at 2:22 AM

Another Go^2d Idea

I just got another business idea... colored wax! I once went to a hair salon in Kuala Lumper. The hair stylist applied a kind of wax with color on my hair. I wonder whether the choir members will need it every service... $$$!

Posted by Benjamin at 2:21 AM

Happy Birthday To Me =)

Today turned out to be one of the best days of my life! The Chung Cheng kids gave me a little birthday surpise. Rubber Biakky came early for tuition (surprisingly). Dying Ant and Weeping Mann came late for their tuition. Then they suddenly appeared with a birthday cake! Emo Ming came along with them. After eating the cake, we decided to end tuition (as though we started it in the first place =p). Emo Ming craved for Fish & Co... my favourite restaurtant! This is the third time I ate at Fish & Co on my birthday! We went to the one at Vivo City. After the dinner, we watch the movie Blades of Glory. Damn humorous. To think that I actually understood all the jokes and almost thought that I laughed the most in the cinema. Meanwhile I found a giant size popcorn and wanted to show Emo Ming. But the popcorn suddenly broke up and fell all over her body! She thought that I was throwing popcorn at her and started a mini popcorn war with me. After the movie, we went to pick up my pickup (rhyme leh giddit giddit). As usual, I couldn't remember where it was! So we searched the carpark for 15 minutes before Dying Ant spotted it first! I drove them to Suntec City, where we went shopping. I bought a nice Lawman V-neck T-shirt for myself as part of my choir uniform. Then I walked into New Urban Male and saw my cell group helper Maybelline (maybe it's Maybelline giddit giddit) and my ex-cell members Perlie and Benjamin Song! What a surpise! I told them I was out with my students. Then Rubber Biakky walked in and I introduced her to them. I saw the suspicious look on Maybelline's face and quickly added that there are two more behind her. Immediately her facial expression returned to normal. I knew her too well =p 8 pm. Time for choir IC practice. I tried my best to keep my spirits up as I learned the songs. Mum gave me a call and told me that she, Dad and brothers were waiting for me to come home for BBQ. Just when I thought the practice was over, the rest of my choir friends suddenly appeared with a birthday cake! What a surprise! There were so many of them! I didn't expect them to make the effort to come... they waited for my practice to end! They also bought me literally a box of presents (or choir uniform =p). For only six months of friendship, they had done so much for me. I cannot believe that this is happening to me. I can only say God is the answer!

Posted by Benjamin at 2:08 AM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Happy Birthday To Me =(

Today is my birthday. I have already planned to eat at Fish & Co, watch a movie and then go shopping for clothes with the Chung Cheng kids. I asked Smart Alec whether he can help me attend it, but he has to work. I have to go. Damn sad.

Posted by Benjamin at 1:17 AM

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Assignments

I realised that my assignments have an interesting coincidence. After I got into a partnership with Elmo and Lian, my first assignment is to write about the merits and demerits on partnerships. Next, I became a choir vocal IC in church when it was in the midst of change and problem solving. My fourth assignment was on change management and policy making. When I joined Nu Skin Enterprises as a distributor, my fifth assignment came, and it was about sustainability and the triple bottom line. Recently, Superman asked me to join his business venture and my sixth assignment is about making a business plan. I think God is helping me with my studies!

Posted by Benjamin at 11:53 PM

Sponge Box's Birthday

Sponge Box's birthday. KBox at Ceineleisure. Great night. Sleep half an hour in the room. Never sleep for the rest of the night. Went tuition. Automatic shutdown of brain system. Damn tired.

Posted by Benjamin at 12:53 AM

Thursday, June 7, 2007

New Business

Superman asked me out for supper a few days ago. He intends to do business with me. I prayed the day before that I want to earn money outside my tuition. Is this God's will? We registered our business today. Fast right?

Posted by Benjamin at 1:11 AM

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Blur Dying Ant


I was expecting Weeping Mann, Dying Ant and Rubber Biakky for tuition at my house today. I was worried that Dying Ant would lost her way because she is such a blur in the ass (just being lame... don't too much into it hor?! See her 'blur' picture!), so I sms her to confirm whether she can find her way to my house. Guess what? She said that she was in Jurong West MRT station! I was stunt. Jurong East! It is located like the other side of Singapore. I called immediately to ask what the **** (nothing vulgar... don't too much into it again hor?!) is she doing at Jurong East MRT station. She said that Weeping Mann told her that my house is in a condominium at Jurong East. Jurong West! Oh my God. I called her immediately to confirm her location. Jurong East! No kidding! She said she was going to take a cab to my house. I offered to pay for her cab fare and treat her cookies. After a while, Weeping Mann and Rubber Biakky reached my house. Guess who came along with them? Dying Ant! She was only acting! So turned out I was the stupid one. Cheat my feelings!

Posted by Benjamin at 2:18 PM

A Go^2d Idea

I woke up late for Emo Ming's tuition (again). It must be her fault. She is a leech and sucks out all my energy (just kidding?!). I slept at 3:30 am yesterday. I was reading about this couple on the newspaper who sets up a business based on their expertise. Then a question struck me: what is my expertise? I believe that God has placed all I need to suceed in life around me. All I need to do is to pray that I am able to see them and put them into good use. I asked myself what have I been doing for the past three years... making notes?! Maybe I can post my notes on the Internet and share what I know with other people. In this way I can increase traffic flow on my website and earn money out of advertisements!

Posted by Benjamin at 1:54 PM

Monday, June 4, 2007

Comforted


I was feeling better today. I have a feeling that someone is watching me. It was as though God sent an angel to assure me that I am not neglected. I wore my favourite Nike sports suit to service. Once again it didn't pass. I was expecting someone to tell me straight at my face. Low self-esteem. Maybe I really don't have any fashion sense. Today I learn what it means to be 'casual'. It means too simple or plain! I always thought that dressing up means wearing more clothes. Justin asked me to change into a blue t-shirt with nice design on the front, and also lent his silver necklace. I passed! I was dead shocked. A t-shirt and a necklace! That's all? This is one of the many times when I really tried hard to improve myself and then realised I am going in the opposite direction. I need to change my wardrobe again =p. The t-shirt is tight-fit and it starts to draw attention from some people who then commented that I have a good body build. Trust me... I am not a body builder! I used to be a fat pork. Then I burned the fats, leaving the muscles. Sounds too easy right! To think that I was often ridiculed at for being fat. I guess we will never know why God wants us to go through life until we experience it! The t-shirt made me feel a bit naked though. I never stand on stage with only a t-shirt. Not used to it. Idy asked Adam to lend me a black vest. The combination was great. I was feeling confident and good about myself. Most importantly I have done my best on stage and didn't pull my choir friends and church down. I also felt so pampered by my great choir friends who helped my styled my hair. James sprayed colors on my hair and 'baptised' it in gel and wax. Idy ironed my hair and 'baptised' it in moose. Keith and his gang stlyed my hair and 'baptised' in hair spray. Left many finger prints on my hair. If I am murdered today, these people will be the suspects. Cause of death: drowned in gel, wax, moose and hair spray. Lame.

Posted by Benjamin at 1:47 AM

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Defeated

I feel lousy today. Firstly, I think I am not a good tuition teacher. Most of my students scored badly like nobody's business. I feel I wasted my students' time and money. I always thought I am a good tutor. I have spent fours years of my life making notes, reading textbooks and getting examination papers for them. Now I realise all these doesn't work. More important is whether they place a value in what you teach. 2004 was a good year. None of my students scored lower than B3 for their 'O' level examinations. Anthony remembered me until now because I answered a question on relative velocity on the eve of his examination and it came out the next day. He got an A1. 2005 was a good year. Phay's physics grade improved from F9 to A2. He thanked me for helping him and even blamed himself for not working hard enough. He also apologised for disappointing me. Last year was the best. Gabriel got a book prize for his 'O' level chemistry examination. I felt so comforted when he told me that I was the best tutor he ever had. Natalie scored more than 90 % for both her chemistry and physics examinations, even though I taught her only for 6 lessons. This year, I think I need to change my teaching method, or change my job. Secondly, I feel so incompetent as a choir vocal IC. I was asked to lead warm up for the choir. I stunned. I don't know how to start. I was asked how to sing the new songs. I don't know how. I didn't come for the previous services. I was told to dress well for choir. Justin said that my dressing was too plain. Annabel said that it was too casual. I saw Alec and Victor, my fellow vocal ICs, walking around with responsibilities at hand. I stood on stage like any other choir member. I guess being a choir vocal IC is not just about being good at singing. I need to grow.

Posted by Benjamin at 7:30 PM